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REFLECTION

REFLECTION

by Scott Lew 9/20/13

When I was just a gimpy guy
 in a wheelchair
 with a smile
 and a palpable positive attitude
Strangers would come up
 tell me their life stories
Friends would confide in me
 secrets
 they never told anyone
I appealed to healers and heretics
 the interesting and possibly insane
Everyone
 wanted to talk
I was a mirror
 in which they could see
Themselves
 reflected back
 from my most mortal
 point of view
Strange comfort
I was an accidental oracle
It made me feel good
 helpful 
 needed 

Then I got trached
 and I lost my ability
 to talk
Soon after
 my facial muscles
 atrophied
I couldn’t smile
 not even with
 my eyes
People no longer saw
 their reflection
 in me
They saw
 a blank void
And they stopped
 talking
 stopped
 approaching
Even my closest
 friends
I’m still the same guy
 but now I’m like a black hole
 absorbing everything
 reflecting nothing
And I get it
Who can look
 into a black hole
 without being
 disturbed
But it’s not that
 I’m a pariah
When people do
 brave talking to me
They’re amazed
 I’m still all
 there in there
I try to make them
 laugh
 by blinking out
 one word
 jokes
Croutons
And my boys know
 I say “yes”
 by blinking
So they’re always
 looking into my eyes
 and I get to get
 lost
 in theirs
Profoundly
 connected 

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